|you know that this is a horse blog, right?|
How does this relate to horses, you ask? Hang on I'm getting to that.
The lecturer was saying that the, like males with ASD, girls can have very intense interests but it's not the same. 'often it's horses' she said. My ears pricked up. She went on to describe a young girl she was working with: 'she had books on horses, her wall was papered with horses, all she wanted to talk about was horses. I asked her what her plans were for the weekend and told me "I'm riding horses! Of course". Everyone laughed. The lecturer said that it wasn't that she loved horses, 'lots of people like horses' but the intensity and how this one interest overshadowed everything else.
Sound familiar? It definitely did to me.
I do not believe that I have autism. Although, like the majority of people, I have some features in common. After all, autism is a cluster of symptoms and falls along a spectrum.* But even if I do, I am functioning fine and feel no need to have this explored.
But is my intense interest in horses something that is pathological?
|I can never get enough of this.|
Merriam-Webster, defines pathological as "being to such a degree that it is extreme, excessive or markedly abnormal. Passion is defined as "a strong liking or devotion to some activity, object or concept."
It seems to me to a rather narrow line and probably depends on your perspective. I spend a lot of time and money on horses. I'm either taking care of, riding or thinking about them. I have always been this way.
|I don't even want to think about how much money over the years....|
So I don't know. What is the difference between passion and pathology? Do you know? Are we all one mental health visit away from a diagnosis? Do we care?
It's possible that I am overthinking it.
What do you think?
*This is note to say that, personally, I don't like to use the term 'Aspergers'. It's not because of the thinking that Aspergers is simply on the high functioning side of the spectrum. It's because Dr. Hans Asperger worked under the Nazi regime, believed in Eugenics and sent children deemed of 'no value' to their deaths. I simply cannot honour that name. https://www.nature.com/articles/d41586-018-05112-1